“My Almost Other Half”

I was nearly whole when I met you

Broken and empty, but intact in sum

And yet, you still wanted more than I was

And the pain had only just begun

You should’ve cut out my tongue if it pleased you

Talking proved useless anyway

Nothing I ever said to you mattered

And you never heard a word I had to say

My pleas had echoed upon deaf ears

A pained cry that you could not hear

It was lost in a flux between fact and fiction

So please feel free to take my ears

Your hatred is deafening to me

And your beauty has made me blind

So don’t forget to take my eyes

Squeeze them in between your hands

Like you ripped my weary soul apart

Just as you had planned to do

Just as you had warned me in advance

But leave my goddamn heart alone

I didn’t give it to you to throw away

There’s something about the way you love

It leaves so much to be desired

I thought you and I fit like a glove

But now I’m cold, and oh so tired

So go ahead and take my legs

I have no place to go to anyway

You’re the only thing I ever ran to

And now I can’t run far enough away

And as for my arms, they’ve grown too heavy

Without you in them to hold me up

So you can have those, too

They were for you anyway

The pain is now just weighing me down

My entire body has all but given up

But as for my spirit

As broken as it is

That you cannot have

It’s all I have left

And this is how It’ll have to stay

Empty and disfigured

A hollow shell of the man I was

Left gutted, the way love often does

β€” David Allen

(Inspired by Leonard Cohen’s “Take this Longing.” Rest in peace, you Beautiful Loser. You’ll always be a winner in my book. Sept. 21, 1934 – Nov. 7, 2016)

15 thoughts on ““My Almost Other Half”

      1. grevisangel73

        Yes, I am sure he knew he was going. That last record was his finale. He sounded tired, great work, nonetheless. We lost a lot of good ones this year.

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      2. volkuros Post author

        He got to complete it with the help of his son Adam Cohen. And he did it all from a “medical chair.” I’m sure he probably meant a wheelchair, but those were his words. Yeah, it was definitely intended as a farewell, just like David Bowie’s final album earlier this year. And now we’ve lost George Michael, and the year isn’t even over yet. πŸ˜”

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      3. grevisangel73

        Not too many days left. Hopefully they are over. I was reading about that and it reminded me of Johnny Cash. he was recording right up until he died and he knew it. I think it helped both of them last a bit longer. Their last records kept them going and gave them a purpose to keep going a little further. We are the luckier for that.

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      4. volkuros Post author

        I agree. We are luckier to have had all that these artists could touch our lives with. And it’s really special that they knew what kind of legacy they were leaving behind, and just how important it was to their fans.

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    1. volkuros Post author

      Thank YOU, Shasha. I truly believe that the person who wrote β€œIt is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” has never experienced that one true love. And I have to admit, I envy him.

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      1. @ShashaSelflove

        True. But be proud that you survived giving your heart away, had it crushed to bits and you are still alive to tell about it. I have loved into an empty space and the abyss didn’t devour me.

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